Felt very much the need to drown myself in NEWS music and just started on the first song, Kesenai. This song has been in my head for a long time, probably weeks already. I really love the melody, Tego's voice and everything. Then just a while ago, after I updated FB about myself wanting to listen to NEWS, this song came up, I hummed a little, and tears just came flowing. A little exaggerated, but tears came. And today I have been down and down and crying every moment. I also cried a few days ago. I thought NEWS's splitting never meant that much to me anymore. I don't really know now.
A few days ago, forgot what happened, but I went to search for Winter Moon's piano piece and when I heard the intro immediately I burst into tears. I wonder what really happened that moment. Then I wrote a message down, on FB, reminding myself of what I felt, and not wanting myself to forget that moment ever. To always remember how much I treasure and love NEWS.
去年のことを思い出して、泣かせてしまいました。この瞬間、この気持ちを、忘れさせたくない。君たちを愛することも。何人になっ ても、ずっとこんなに応援したい。がんばってね、NEWS。
Just to quote what I wrote. I feel very much better now. I don't know if it's because I've calmed down or because I'm listening to NEWS songs. I will move on to Pi's song later too~ And Pi had some appearance on TV which was recorded on a news (I just typed NEW then realised I wrote the wrong kind) programme. It had offshots of Pi commenting on his departure from NEWS. It was saddening just reading the translations. Watching the real one just bring tears to my eyes all over again. Then he said, 「生きているから、僕たちは」, which was really heartwarming. Listening to Winter Moon is always a.. I don't know. Not exactly a torture, but not exactly a pleasure as well. It is playing now and it always brings tears. I don't know what I'm crying about, at all.
So some random updates about my fandom, NEWS and members. And ex-members, from 6-nin NEWS to be exact. Pi releasing single, Ai, Texas, and it has 7 versions all together including the ordinary one. When I said version, it just meant versions with different goodies. So let's start counting. LE A, LE B, RE, Lawson, Warner, TBS LE A, TBS LE B, TBS RE, cd shop LE A, LE B, RE. Actually, 11 types. But since TBS and CD shops has the same goodies for all version, counted as one instead. Total 7. -_-|| I am buying 20 copies in the end, spending almost $500 plus shipping I believe?! DVD is much cheaper. -__-||
That's all. I don't really know what to update about NEWS. Recently there's a radio show, k-chan news and all members appeared on it. It was a little noisy, but it sounded fun. It was short though, and when I heard the one someone uploaded on Youtube I asked if the song they played was the original. Seems like they don't edit the past songs, so you'll still hear Ryo's and Pi's voices in it. I really wonder how it felt like to NEWS when they heard these. They can't say things like Pi's or Ryo's voice made it sounded high, or comment anything about them at all. Koyamapi came up with that "You tachi, nani kata?" deshou? Ginza Rhapsody... Many many memories that they created together. I don't know. And to quote again, the message I typed to the uploader:
いいえ、ぜんぜんありません。ただ、どこにも六人の姿がもう見えないから、曲の方もそうになったかと思っただけ。それを知った後 、六人の存在が消せない実なようで、ちょっとうれしくなったね。 ごめんね、変なことを書いた。とにかく、ほんとうにありがとうご ざいます～（文のどこが間違ってすみません、まだ上手じゃないん です。）
So I mentioned about them no longer being 6nin everywhere.. I don't really know what to type now.. I guess I'll end here for now. I shall move on to another blog of mine. Feel like typing in nihongo somehow.. Now.. :)
