To Tomohisa Yamashita
Today I am going to tell you what I've always wanting to tell you
And I am going to say it specially in front of all the people who have come to support you
You left NEWS
If you had the strength to unite the 6 people
If you had the strength to pull everyone together
Not only you'll be able to let the fans stay happy
You might not even have to leave NEWS
The choice which you've made now
Is the result of what you've been pondering over the last 3 years, right?
However, I think that with your departure
Among the fans of NEWS, some are angry, some are shocked, some hate you
Even if you want to apologize to these fans
Before you could find the right time to do that, time has slipped away
If you were more capable
Not only you could carry out your solo work
You would also be able to prevent emotions like these from developing and continue to move on
3 years ago
NEWS had their regular TV variety show for the first time
But during that time
You were continuously filming "Buzzer Beat" and then "Code Blue", so you had to decline appearing in the variety show
Before you made that decision,
you blamed yourself
Could you go on like this?
You've caused troubles to the members
You couldn't convince yourself too
What ordinary folks could do, you couldn't
Between group and individual work, you couldn't balance them well
Therefore you decided to leave yourself out
Began the journey on your own
The road ahead was tougher than you thought
I think you've realized it by now
When you were with NEWS
you were always first in Oricon ranking
The Yamashita Tomohisa in NEWS were also first then
But now you're not with NEWS anymore
Yamashita Tomohisa's song is also not first anymore
Do you have any regrets?
However, after you've accepted this reality
You should also realize that you are now able to accept more challenges ahead
"You only have one lifetime"
You strongly believe in this phrase
To those who decide to support the you who are restarting,
To those who are appearing in front of you today,
In order to let them believe that what you have chosen is what is best for everyone
You have to put in a lot more effort to work harder
Therefore, the you who are always not good at spoken words only have this to say to everyone
Yamashita appeared on the stage at this moment and he said:-
Everyone of you
You believe in me
You've come here today
I thank you from the bottom of my heart
And, from now onwards
please continue to watch over me
Credits Yamashita Tomohisa Facebook
Now I'm left with only 20+ minutes because of the loading... Nevermind about that.
I have to let out all my feelings within such short time anyway.
Yesterday saw a person on my fb talking about Pi being pathetic. And that she thanks him for leaving the group so that the rest could shine now. I don't know why but I got so mad when I saw it. I don't know what happened for her to say that out of a sudden, as NEWS getting oricon top was like a week ago already.
Then I got to know from Miyuki, that Pi had a letter written to himself read out during the Osaka concert. When I read the letter, I cried. Then when I went home, I listened to the concert audio, and more crying came. I don't know why I cried. But it is not because I pity him or what. I felt his struggle. His reprimands. His guilt or remorse. His helpless.
Miyuki said something that really struck my mind. She said, she convinced herself that it was Pi who brought her to NEWS. Then it struck me. Yes, it was Pi who led me to NEWS. I support NEWS. But right from the start, if it wasn't for Pi, I wouldn't have known NEWS. So those fans who are reprimanding him or saying that what he shed were crocodile tears, they definitely have never seen the hard work and effort that Pi had put in.
When he mentioned that he had to decline the offer when NEWS had the chance for a variety show, I didn't know he was undergoing such difficult times.
I didn't watch SGSB con that many times, so I don't remember what promises he had given with regards to NEWS. When he left NEWS, I was heartbroken because I could no longer see the 6 of them together. It was not about abandoning the 4, it was just that I wanted the 6 to be together.
Therefore right now, if there can be any chances of them being together again, it doesn't have to be a performance. If they are able to laugh alongside each other, that would be enough.
The Pi I know doesn't like admitting defeat, yet he did it in front of all the fans. Just how much courage does he need? I may not know how he doesn't confide in anyone even his family and friends, or others, but even for an ordinary person like me, having written such a letter and to admit such things in front of so many people, even I don't know if I could do it let alone Pi whom we all know are supposed to be all smooth-sailing with no problems?
Who expected that he would have to face such "low-tide" in his career?
Then I looked back on my posts before I even knew about this letter, I was indeed a Pi fan I thought. How I guard Pi and believe in him wholeheartedly. And none of my words wavered. I became even more certain and firmed when I read the letter.
I don't know if I still blame him for leaving NEWS, if I ever blamed him anyway, or at any time dislike him or anything. But right now, all I know is that HE is the one I have chosen, out of so many out there. I could have gone with anyone in NEWS yet Pi stayed in my heart all the while.
Yin once said there's only 1 man in your heart and that you will definitely choose him over anything else anytime. Because I said if NEWS and Pi had concert on the same day I wouldn't know what to choose or do. But she was sure that I will go to Pi's than NEWS's. She's so right. I just didn't want to admit that because Pi has left NEWS, I am going to choose Pi over NEWS anytime. I was just trying to be a good bench sitter or something. I know I can't. I still love NEWS. I love seeing them. But they are different already. They are.
No longer the 6P NEWS.
If Pi you were to doubt yourself for not being able to bond all 6 of you and bring them to a higher level, then I will have to doubt NEWS's existence in the first place.
You were the one who brought them to such level, and now you allow them to be able to carry on from a platform you had previously placed for them to shine even better. It was once your place and effort too.
Do not doubt yourself in it.
From now on, I will support you as always.
Jya, ijyoudeshita.
