I have a fantasy in my head right now. You know there were so many negative comments about Pi talking about NEWS, mentioning "Chankapaana" and even doing that call during con. I understand that it's because it's a NEWS thing right now, and that Pi no longer has relations with NEWS, and that NEWS haven't got the chance to do it yet.
But what if? What if NEWS mentioned Pi and Ryo during concert? What if NEWS addressed this matter? I had so many different scenarios going on in my mind.
- "Ero pi Ero pi Ero pi Senorita!" (Sung by Tego)
- Talking about Ero not having enough Erotic lyrics, Chakapaana wins
- Singing "nigesanai sono mama de~" (Massu)
- Saying Pi helped to promote, so they should mention Ero a little too
- Telling Pi he has the permission to use that call during his con from that moment onwards (arienai)
- Saying Pi messaged them all on that morning wishing them all the best and have an awesome concert (and I suddenly burst out crying just because of this thought) ok add in Ryo just so that I don't seem bias and Pi isn't trying that hard to bring back the nakayoshi
And yes I had doubts too. Like so many people saying that Pi is playing the pathetic/self-pity/sympathetic trick or something. It was all the mentioning of NEWS. But like a baka, I accept everything. I was the only baka who kept on shouting when he talked about Chankapaana and shouted Paana with my lungs. I don't care because any moments showing that he keeps track of NEWS make my day.
Solo Pi is so easy to move on with because he had so many solo events before. But 4nin NEWS is something that till now, I couldn't move on with. I thought I did. I didn't cry when I saw all those happenings, the photos or whatever. I probably can watch all their previous concerts without thinking that much. But just when I thought so, Full Swing perf on SC just made me cried hard again.
By the way, just before I forget, I was talking with someone regarding pi's letter. That how he said he wasn't able to handle solo and group work. I mentioned groups like SMAP Arashi and all always have solo works going on yet able to release singles and all. But I forgot one thing. They never had something like NEWS, where the members go solo and release singles or albums, which they had to promote on their own. Ryo had K8, Pi, Tegomass. That's enough. But just like what others said, if Pi had not wanted anything solo, Tegomass probably wouldn't have the chance to continue, NEWS would probably have more activities then.
2009 was the first year Pi decided to go ahead with a solo con. Wasn't that year Soukon got introduced too? It probably wasn't only because of Buzzer Beat and Code Blue 2 that he rejected. He probably already thought about that solo con and Loveless. Whatever it was, I don't really care now.
It was just that, my stand was wrong when I said Pi didn't have the ability. Because what he has to handle is much more than those in SMAP or Arashi.
I've calmed down, suddenly. Probably because of this solemn topic. But Pi I still love you. *laughs* I don't know how to stop. I don't know, I am a little scare too, that I may stop supporting NEWS. Though spending 50000 on one ticket doesn't seems to be the sign that I'm stopping.
Spamming Pi songs right now because it fits the mood somehow. During second con, I noticed Pi's small secret about his hand on his pants just when he finished the first verse of Ero during encore. With this, I'll remember what happened. Just want to emphasize, Pi, I really love your real voice. It would have been if you could continue Nayami no mori no naka, sing kimi to kaze to mikazuki and many other songs. But I really love Candy~ :) And Perfect Crime!
There are so many perfs that stayed in my mind. Kari-na, Odoru Yoru, Baby Baby, Blood Diamond, Ero (maybe not), Perfect Crime, Nayami no Mori no Naka, Shiver, Hit the Wall... Odoru Yoru made me into EROMao mode. Blood diamond too.
The thing was, I forgot to take a picture on my last day!!! So I have to draw to remember my seat. *laughs*
I have decided that I shall not mention about my seating in full details until tomorrow ends. So I will wait till tomorrow then upload that picture that I've created. :)
Like what I have been saying the past few days, I have used up all my luck for Pi. My tian gong really bao you me so much. I was so depressed on Sat because I somehow felt that I didn't manage to get that one look from him no matter how hard I tried. Firstly on Fri I was a little affected. When Sat ended, I was totally depressed. And when Sun came, I was all prepared for that same seat which I had on Fri. Of course maybe moved a little. That was why when I went to the counter, I didn't even look at the ticket anymore. On the first day, I was curious but I knew it won't be that splendid. And when I was brought to my seat, I was already happy because I could see almost all stages clearly. I enjoyed my first day very much. Then on the second day, I was overjoyed when I saw my seat. But of course, lady luck wasn't by my side so I didn't grab any attention of Pi's. In the end I was so disappointed I went for the demachi. Even so, I still felt down. So the last day, with my gakkari and mental preparation for the same seat as day 1, I collected the ticket, still meddling with all my stuffs, I went into that special gate meant for international fans only. I wasn't even ready with my ticket when I entered, so I just handed it to the staff, he tore it, another checked my bag, I went in. Walking halfway down, reaching the inside of arena, I know I have to check my ticket to know where to go. Then I looked, I saw that miraculous word on the ticket.
I let out a shrill. Actually now that I tried to recall, it should be at least 3 shrills, consecutively. And I dashed to the nearest door, seeing that my number was written there, I entered. There were many fans who looked at me the moment I screamed. When I reached my seat, I just cried. However thinking of my make-up, I tried bearing it. Though still I cried a little.
So I got to know a few friends too due to that. Was a little too shy on the first day, especially when I rushed so much and only managed to reach girigiri. Then finally I left with the fans. :) Forgetting to take photo. Haha. Funny thing was that a lady approached us to ask where we all came from. She seemed amazed by the fact that we came over specially. And it was only until that moment, that I got to know that Japanese fans don't know that J-ticket caters to international fans now. For certain shows though.Yup.
Tomorrow shall be the last spurt!! I'm sad that I can't attend Yoyogi. It always has to be the end ah. Nevertheless, I got to see Toma and Tackey! (But the previous Yoyogi had Kei and Massu!!) Of course which will be impossible now. I may be lucky to always catch Toma and Tackey in action, but I fail badly in first con and last con. Always will not be able to make it. Or in fact I'll just miss that most important one somehow. But whatever it is, I wish for all the best for tomorrow. I am not going to ask for anything else I guess. It's just a simple seat. Nothing much to wish for too. *laughs* Just plainly for watching the whole place, Pi. :) I shall dance with you tomorrow!!
Alright, I might have missed out a lot of things that I wanted to say, but I shall just end here because soon I have to start preparing and bathing. All because of you Pi!!!
いい思い出作ってくれてありがとう。好きだぞ！シンガポールから、一緒に歩いてあげる。
Just a thought. I know Pi will not remember me. But that is alright. Slowly, step by step, I will make sure you remember this girl from Singapore. Because you may have many fans from Shanghai, Hong Kong, Taiwan, there is only this one girl from Singapore. Always there for you. You may not know that she's all alone, but there she will be somewhere.
I have never had good luck with idols. But until this extent, it is already what best could have happened to me.
Thank you.
