EROP Concert Loveless Perf

Just want to spam somewhere about my feelings for listening to live Loveless sung by Pi!!! I can't find anyone to share this happiness or whatever you call it.. *cries*

I hadn't been able to complete EROP DVD until yesterday. Therefore it was my first time watching the encore part. Of course I was exhilarated when I realised that it was live, and I couldn't help but spammed my friend. Then it was followed by Ai Texas (which definitely was live), and Ero. I always had the perception of  Ero being lip-synced, even during encore segment. But for the first time, I didn't know how to differentiate between his lip-syncing and live anymore. Could it be that I was mistaking him for lip-syncing all along when he wasn't? Or probably it was that only show where he sang more songs live? I was there for 4 shows, and I thought only Fukuoka show's Nayami no Mori was live fully. Masaka all YokoAri shows were also live NnM, just that I kept mistaking or suspecting the last chorus to be lip-synced just because it was too perfect?

Oh dear, how could I doubt my darling?!?!

I feel so lost now. I am so lost that I don't even know if the feelings I have now are called "being lost".

Anyway, after watching that concert yesterday, it was like I fell for Pi all over again, just deeper. Then I didn't dare to watch or listen to that particular performance, because I was afraid that I will want to meet him more the more I watch it. It was like these few weeks/months I was not so focused on him anymore, and suddenly this happened and I was so afraid that I will become so obsessed of him once again.

But then I went to listen again, that particular performance. Just as expected, I was overwhelmed with emotions. Because I was watching with a friend yesterday in a more opened area, I was able to suppress my feelings. But just now I was sort of alone and could immerse myself into the concert atmosphere, I couldn't help but was overwhelmed with emotions. I cried so hard during the second verse, where he did not sing for a while, and suddenly went into the verse right before chorus.

At that moment, his voice sounded so live that it astonished (to fill with sudden and overpowering surprise or wonder; amaze) me. Of course all along I knew he could sing, and I love his voice so much. Which was why during lives I always look out for his singing, and will be so touched whenever he is singing live. But somehow, I just felt that

Please tell me how not to love him. His voice was so beautiful. I knew he could do it. Or rather, that is how his voice would sound like. It was his voice that made me fell in love with him in the first place.

And that performance, was like one best performance which I wished I was there. He had Loveless as encore song for SGSB con, but during chorus part, he left it for the fans to sing, which I felt was incomplete, because all along I had wanted to hear Loveless live.

His voice was so beautiful, wonderful, mesmerizing and I don't know enough words to describe the awesomeness of it. I literally melted. I was so full of emotions that I really cried. His voice never fails to impress me. Of course he may not be a perfect singer, but that is enough. All I longed for was his live singing. And I was so impressed of how well he sang during that perf. Or all along, if all those perfect singing was part of his voice too.

Once again, I have fallen for you.

増田貴久

Nwpana10ve_sato@Twitter

俺はそもそもイタズラされるのも、するのも好きじゃない。でもエイプリルフールはいつもソワソワするんだろね、何かしたくて（笑）。人に不快感を与えず、みんなが楽しくなるようなイタズラが思いつかなくて、結局何もしないまま毎年終わってる。手越はよくイタズラするよ。昔、山下（智久）君の靴の底をガムテープで床に貼ったことがあって。山下君はそのまま靴に足をつっこんだから、一歩踏み出そうとして転びそうになってたよ（笑）。山下君もめっちゃいいリアクションしてた。”うわぁぁぁぁ！”って。 

－増田貴久

加藤シゲアキ

dorajindora＠Twitter

「ぶっちゃけ、俺は今でも山下くんと錦戸くんが辞めたことは最善の方法とは考えられない。もちろんがんばっているのも知っているし、尊敬だってしてる。でも、途中で抜けた人がいるってことは、残る者からしたらショックだよ。俺、今でも、ふたりが去っていく最後の背中を覚えているもん。だからさ、あえてそのときの気持ちは忘れないでいようって思って。その思いを持っていれば、それが原動力になって、これからももっと自分を高められる気がするか．．．」

－加藤シゲアキ 

Notes:
ぶっちゃけ　－　うちあける　－　人に知られたくない事実や秘密などを、思い切って隠さずに話す。うちあかす。「思いのたけを―・ける」
最善　－　いちばんよいこと。いちばん適切なこと。

忘れないでいよう

"Secretly, even now I can't regard the quitting of Yamashita kun and Nishikido kun as the best solution. Of course I know that they have been working hard, and I respect them. However, it is a shock to have people pulling out from those who remained. I, even now, still remember the backs of the two when they last left. Therefore, I shall never forget the feelings during the time when we could meet. If I hold these feelings, it will become a driving force, and I feel that I can also improve myself more from now onwards..." 

- Kato Shigeaki 

「俺、今でも、ふたりが去っていく最後の背中を覚えているもん。」
"I, even now, still remember the backs of the two when they last left."

news_picbot@Twitter

あと、俺は２度目のNEWS解散シミュレーションをした。「マッスーと手越はテゴマスを選ぶかもしれないけど、俺と小山はふたりでもNEWSをやっていこうなぁ」なんて話を小山としたこともあったな。だって、俺らにはNEWSしかないから！俺らはずっとNEWSとして音楽活動ができる日、みんなに会える日を待っていたから、簡単に解散するなんて無理。だから、４人を含めてたくさんの人と今後のことについて話し合いをし、NEWSが続けられると決まったときは泣きたいくらいうれしかった。

－加藤シゲアキ 

山下への手紙

山下さんへ

お誕生日おめでとうございます！素晴らしい誕生日を！２８年前のこの日にこの世に生まれてくれたありがとう。

３月１７日に７番目シングル、「怪・セラ・セラ」が発売されたおめでとう！買いましたよ！どれ曲も好きです！でも日本に住んでいないので、スペシャルトランプは募集できなくて残念でした。で、「怪・セラ・セラ」のパフォーマンスは素晴らしかったんです。見てましたよ。いつかライブで演出を見るのを楽しみです。（山Ｐのコンサートを見に行くときかな．．．）

そしてちょっと遅れたけど、初めてテレビ司会させたおめでとう！ちゃんと見てましたよ、毎週。ただ放送時間が早くて、放送の前に帰宅できません。仕方はないか？ところで、山Ｐは本当に一所懸命に頑張っていますよ。段々司会の役になれてきた感じです！良かったんです。頑張ってください！

この前横アリで山Ｐと会ったからはもう八ヶ月を経ちました。はやいですね～会いたいんです。山Ｐに会いたくてたまりません！でもコンサートを前提に会えますか．．．

ちなみに、私は今まだ日本語を勉強しています。山Ｐの頑張っている姿を見ると、「頑張らなきゃいけないわ！」といつも思いました。いつか日本語がうまく使えるように。頑張ります！

最後に、山Ｐがいつも元気いっぱいをくれてありがとう。時々寂しくなったけど、ＪＷＥＢで山Ｐのことを読めるだけで満足します。山Ｐが遠くいても、山Ｐの存在で十分幸せにさせます。だから、これからも頑張っていってください！またいつか会うのを楽しみします。

シンガポールのマウリンより

～＊～＊～＊～＊～＊～＊～＊～

っていう手紙を書いておきました。
もうお誕生日です、山Ｐおめでとう～＾＾
山Ｐファンではもう六周年になります。
はやいですね、時間が。
そして、色んな事情があって、辛い時や悲しい時を何回も乗り越えてきました。
特に去年です。
でも、迷わずに前に進めばいいじゃない？
さっきスマスマを見て、ＮＥＷＳのことを思い出させてしまって、また泣きました。
そうですよね、まだ切ないです。
どうでも受けたくない、事実を。
でも受けるしかない。
また六人の姿が見たい。
今年、夢が叶いますか？
ところで、慶ちゃんもＰにおめでとうって日記で書きました！
嬉しい！
すごく嬉しいです！
ほんっとうに慶ちゃんは優しい～
慶ちゃんありがとう～
大好きです！
山Ｐは返事しますかな～
返事してほしいよ！
本当に幸せです！
ＮＥＷＳファンで、山Ｐファンで、幸せです。
時々辛くなるけど、大丈夫です。
みんながいるから。
ありがとう。

最後に、山Ｐ大好きです！
愛しています！
愛しい山Ｐ！
またいつか会いに行きます！
お誕生日おめでとう～

2013.02.15 Cross Space

AH~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~!

Actually I didn't exactly screamed out loud. Because I can't listen to it live, I have to wait for others to describe what he had said and what songs he played. And I've always looked through Weibo for the information.

So as I was looking through weibo for updates (not exactly for CS updates), I ran through a post which usually updates the song information on the songs he played. And it was so instant. I just glanced through it, and the word "World Quest" just went into my head and I gasped. The next moment (scientifically, a moment is 30 seconds long), but I would like to say instantly, I had tears in my eyes. How instant. I totally don't understand how my brain could process that information so fast and stimulated the tear glands.

Then I went over to twipple to check and he even talked about Massu!! That was when I realised the content was about him watching Utsu con and how Massu had been wanting to perform RETSUPURA. Probably Pi had been there saying he didn't want to perform that. I wonder what kind of feelings Pi had while watching the concert. Chinamini, how did he get hold of the DVD? *laughs* Do you think NEWS gave him a copy? Does all Johnny's (debuted) gets a copy of released DVD or singles or albums? So of course, I wonder if NEWS would watch ERO con as well.

Anyway, I think it is normal for Pi to talk about NEWS, because he is a solo artiste now, he can speak of anything. Really. But as a group, like NEWS and K8, they are supposed to talk about themselves and group members, therefore it would not be appropriate for them to mention others. At least not that easily.

Will we get to hear Pi's songs on Masterhits one day?

Love you Pi. :)

To be frank I've been amayateiru(?) just like shige, who suddenly wanted to hug the members. I too want to hug someone too, like Pi. How can he do such things which make me want to hug him so much? I don't know how to express myself clearly. But I just felt that, the things he does is so loving, so kind and it just makes you want to love him more.

Ok I shall stop here. And I shall write an update on my Utsu con watching some time again~

Johnny's Countdown 2012 - 2013

Nope, I did not attend the live concert at Tokyo Dome last night. How I wish I did, or I had the ability to. However, I did have an unforgettable experience watching the live broadcast at my friend's house with a few other fangirls. Suddenly, I felt so glad that I was with them and not another group of fangirls. At least I was allowed to react freely.

I am super sleepy right now as I did not have enough sleep for consecutive days. However, if I were to not post a post right now, I'm very sure that I'll drag this for such a long time and never completing this.

My main purpose of this post:

1. Describe how I reacted when I was watching JCD
2. Do a short summary of the aftermath of JCD from all the tweets I have read
3. Finish, cry and sleep. *laughs*

Let's get started then!

So right after kohaku ended, I was tuning into CDTV while all my other friends had JCD on already. I thought I had to have CDTV on as Pi might appear anytime on it. Though the experience last year told me that Pi would only appear around 12+ SGT.

So with that, JCD started. Then we happily watched it as they introduced all the members in the venue. So it went from groups to groups. And yes of course I let out a small scream when NEWS appeared. Then something unexpected happened. Pi appeared!! (with Uchi, though it wasn't as important as Pi) At that moment, I just had to scream out loud! I probably did. I think I definitely did! Then the next thing I know was, I started to tear. I don't know how to describe my feelings then, but I was overwhelmed with emotions and my tears just flowed naturally. Then as JCD moved on, my crying just got worse. *laughs* I can't believe the extent of my crying but I really cried out. So much so that my friends were frantically searching for tissue for me!

It was like a dream come true for me. How long have I ever wished for them to be on the same stage. How long have I wished for them to see each other. How much I wished they could still be as good as before. So I couldn't stop my tears that time, and even right now as I am typing this out I'm starting to tear. What a crybaby.

However, being a Pi-biased, of course I was searching for Pi whenever I can instead of NEWS members. Since they are usually together and that makes it much easier to keep a lookout. Then I noticed how Pi and NEWS were separated, and usually on two ends. If NEWS were to be on the left, they will be the most left and Pi will be on the most right. Though I'm glad that Tackey was always around to keep a lookout for Pi~ *laughs* His beloved Pi.

So maybe I shall touch on a little about Pi's appearance in JCD. I only watched it twice, once was the live which was interrupted by network failure. But I could clearly remember some of the points I wanted to comment. First, when Pi was singing Daite, how cute T&T were acting like fangirls in front of Pi (especially Tackey). And before Pi could do his "Tsk ah", the camera was switched and therefore it wasn't shown on the national TV. *pouts* Why you do this to me Fujitv? I wanted Pi's "Tsk ah" the most didn't you know?

Then they gathered on the stage for the countdown, then right after countdown it's the usual shuffle group singing and first group were 4P consisting of Pi, Tsuyoshi, Okada and 1 more whom I seriously forgot now. But he is another senpai. Higashiyama? Matchy? Nevermind about that. But I saw my precious darling Pi walking towards them, and Tsuyoshi was the one standing beside Pi. So when Pi walked to them, he bowed/nodded slightly!!! So cute! So gentle and humble little Pi~ *laughs* Then Tsuyoshi just sort of patted him on the elbow or back and they started singing together. Warm feelings~

Then Ai, texas, Pi sang! Yeah! Live some more! So proud of him! He had kisumai as his backdancers(?) and he said "aishi~" something which I really can't remember now too. Since it was interrupted during the live so I only watched the actual performance once.

So finally they were gathered on the stage for the final greeting and Pi was on the most right while NEWS most left. Pi was standing just right beside and slightly behind Tackey. And it all started. I was watching the live and I thought why they were shown on air so much. I guess the director still favours my Pi a little. :) While the people were commenting and talking on the stage, Pi was shown twice!! Twice!! Just because Tackey was teasing and playing with Pi and Pi was showing some seriously cute and adorable expressions. Finally Pi was also made to say a few words, I also felt that he was cut slightly by the CM. And after reading a JCD fan report indeed he was waving a little more but due to airtime he was cut by CM. Well I am very contented seeing him on JCD already!!

So it ended, that way, finally. With that, I shall move on to my second part of this post.

In this second part, I realised I have too many to summarise so I shall write them in points first:

- Pi and Ryo wearing same ring
- During Daite what NEWS did
- During K8 what NEWS did
- During NEWS "weeeek" what Pi did
- Other small points about NEWSxPi interactions (Waiting at bench, returning to bench)

And most importantly:

(In sequence)
- TegoPi hug
- ShigePi hug (To be precise, TegoPiShige hug)
- KeiPi hug
- MassuPi hug

And I am 90% sure of the sequence above. So long I did not misread all my tweets. I think I can have a read again just in case. *laughs*

All I want to express (before I go into the details of those interactions), is that.. I don't know how to say it suddenly. But these are really hard to come by. I mean. Not because they are not a group anymore or what. I mean, how their bonds are still strong despite everything. That kind of meaning. Hugging is not something you do to normal people. Maybe the shoulders yes, like arms around the shoulders, but not hugging I believe. In JCD, how many times have the boys really hugged? Maybe Koichi and Tsuyoshi and Tokio and those. Yes, inter-groups too but really not often. Maybe they do hug after shows and I wouldn't know about it. But even so, you don't even see hugging in NEWS concerts. Huggings don't happen often enough to be considered a normal phenomenon in Johnny's and especially NEWS. So I mean, with the members hugging Pi, what more can you say? Gosh I feel like crying suddenly. In fact I had, a few drops though. But suddenly I'm contradicting myself because in Utsu concert Shige did jump-hugged everyone. But that was shige doing it, not the other members and all. But of course, Utsu kon was a different thing. It was a concert full of emotions and gratitude.

Especially when you think of how NEWS had been going through after that matter, how everyone sounded like separated paths, all these little actions are really what I don't want to take granted for.

Since I'm ready right now, shall start with the hugs first. Because that's the most important of all, and since I may not remember the details of other things~

So after reading many many tweets, it seems like Tsuyoshi told everyone that they were free to walk around during that last song performance. By the way, just a short note that after the live broadcast on TV, apparently the senpais (matchy and higashiyama) left first but the rest stayed back to continue the last performance or so.

And Tego, upon hearing it, started to walk towards Pi instead, since before Tsuyoshi said anything they were actually heading for different directions. Seems like Shige was also around Tego during that time, and Shige followed suit. So when Tego was walking towards Pi, there were reports saying that he was looking really joyful and full of spirits. (ニコニコ) In fact that word means he's all smiley~ *laughs* What a cute expression and I can totally imagine that. Then when he was near Pi, he hugged him by the back/from his back. Whichever is that correct expression. *laughs* Then Shige who was also around, hugged him by the front at that moment. And so Pi was sandwiched between Shige and Tego. :D

Now the problem is that I can't remember the details for KeiPi because it was probably a little more complicated than what I could understand. Probably that's why it didn't register in my mind. But I'm very sure, similarly, Kei and someone from kisumai (gathered from many many different tweets and concluding that *laughs*) were walking and Pi came walking facing them. Then Kei and Pi hugged. But the exact details, like none? After which KeiPi walked with arms around their shoulders. But not sure for how long too. *laughs*

~*~*~*~*~

Finally finished running through all my tweets. Just how many did I rt? Scary. Anyway, KeiPi is somehow a mystery now because not all wrote about them hugging. But arms around shoulders is definitely confirmed. And it was very confirmed that Tego was all smiling and seriously heading for Pi when Tsuyoshi said they are free to move about. And Tego hugged Pi by the waist. Suddenly I really have the image in my head. It was said that Pi returned the hug. I wonder how because Shige was supposed to hug them at that point of time too~ But shige. I'm so happy that even shige went to hug him!! Then Kei was walking around with kisumai 1 person first, then he walked alone and towards Pi after that, and they walked arms around shoulders, while seeing Uchi Kei high-touched with Uchi.

Finally the climax, MassuPi! *laughs* It was something about Pi going down the stage to probably those places near the fans maybe? But anyway, he was walking (with uchi), then Massu (and Nakamaru) was walking towards them too, facing. So Massu actually spread his arms, and stopped Pi in his path. Stopped as in, Pi already went ahead and they hugged. That spreading of arms was to initiate a hug and Pi was also smiling and hugged him. Then massu hugged Uchi too. After hugging Pi. So finally we had 4 hugs fully covered. Now some random points:

• NEWS dancing/shaking to Daite and especially Massu. Then Kei gestured "kuchizuke wo" to Shige during Pi's "kuchibiru ga jirettai no yo" part.
• NEWS cheering on when Pi was performing Ai Texas.
• Pi was watching from the seats and cheering and enjoying himself very much when NEWS was performing their new song. (should be WQ)
• NEWS returned to the seats after WQ, and Kei went to sit on that same bench as Pi and inside. Shige sat on the bench in front of Pi's. Tegomass stood just by the barricade with arm on the waist (Tego) and Massu folding his pants up.
• Pi talking to Kei/whispering into Kei's ears when Kei sat at the bench with him.
• Pi had chatted with Kei a little on the stage when they stood together.
• When MassuPi hugged, they sort of said something to each other. (Okaeri/Tadaima? My guess.)
• When they all returned to stage once again Pi stood beside tegomass and looked very relieved.

And suddenly I'm like, my goodness did NEWS plan this?? What is this?! Definitely NEWS and Pi had rehearsals right? Why the sudden hugging?!?!?! Were they saying "akemashite omedetou" and hug conveniently?

But rehearsals different feel, it's supposed to be a serious thing. You may joke around but hugging during rehearsals is super strange. I understand it. And probably each has different schedule so they probably didn't even meet.

Never mind about those already. Now my heart is so full of NEWSxPi love and I can sleep peacefully. There were one tweet saying that Tego was nikoniko going to Pi wanting to hug him even though they are rivals now and she thought the bonds are indeed there and exist. Around 60+ of RT excluding those which are not related to fan repo.. Seriously Japanese fans~ *laughs*

Without them I wouldn't know of the hugs and all. I really want to thank them all~

And it is super late now. I should be off for my sleep.

Happy New Year!