EROP Concert Loveless Perf

Just want to spam somewhere about my feelings for listening to live Loveless sung by Pi!!! I can't find anyone to share this happiness or whatever you call it.. *cries*

I hadn't been able to complete EROP DVD until yesterday. Therefore it was my first time watching the encore part. Of course I was exhilarated when I realised that it was live, and I couldn't help but spammed my friend. Then it was followed by Ai Texas (which definitely was live), and Ero. I always had the perception of  Ero being lip-synced, even during encore segment. But for the first time, I didn't know how to differentiate between his lip-syncing and live anymore. Could it be that I was mistaking him for lip-syncing all along when he wasn't? Or probably it was that only show where he sang more songs live? I was there for 4 shows, and I thought only Fukuoka show's Nayami no Mori was live fully. Masaka all YokoAri shows were also live NnM, just that I kept mistaking or suspecting the last chorus to be lip-synced just because it was too perfect?

Oh dear, how could I doubt my darling?!?!

I feel so lost now. I am so lost that I don't even know if the feelings I have now are called "being lost".

Anyway, after watching that concert yesterday, it was like I fell for Pi all over again, just deeper. Then I didn't dare to watch or listen to that particular performance, because I was afraid that I will want to meet him more the more I watch it. It was like these few weeks/months I was not so focused on him anymore, and suddenly this happened and I was so afraid that I will become so obsessed of him once again.

But then I went to listen again, that particular performance. Just as expected, I was overwhelmed with emotions. Because I was watching with a friend yesterday in a more opened area, I was able to suppress my feelings. But just now I was sort of alone and could immerse myself into the concert atmosphere, I couldn't help but was overwhelmed with emotions. I cried so hard during the second verse, where he did not sing for a while, and suddenly went into the verse right before chorus.

At that moment, his voice sounded so live that it astonished (to fill with sudden and overpowering surprise or wonder; amaze) me. Of course all along I knew he could sing, and I love his voice so much. Which was why during lives I always look out for his singing, and will be so touched whenever he is singing live. But somehow, I just felt that

Please tell me how not to love him. His voice was so beautiful. I knew he could do it. Or rather, that is how his voice would sound like. It was his voice that made me fell in love with him in the first place.

And that performance, was like one best performance which I wished I was there. He had Loveless as encore song for SGSB con, but during chorus part, he left it for the fans to sing, which I felt was incomplete, because all along I had wanted to hear Loveless live.

His voice was so beautiful, wonderful, mesmerizing and I don't know enough words to describe the awesomeness of it. I literally melted. I was so full of emotions that I really cried. His voice never fails to impress me. Of course he may not be a perfect singer, but that is enough. All I longed for was his live singing. And I was so impressed of how well he sang during that perf. Or all along, if all those perfect singing was part of his voice too.

Once again, I have fallen for you.