Well, just trying to blog through phone regarding today's listening of NEWS songs. Share. Umareshi kimi no uta. Tears.

Mata Onaji Koto

Onaji hanashi bakkari jya nai? I was watching the documentary of LIVE concert. Well, I didn't feel anything so I thought I totally accepted the facts or something. Occasionally during some parts I would even tell myself that NEWS will never be the same however still I did not have any urge to cry or something. During the last part, suddenly they changed the bgm to share, and the questions they asked the members were about share. I think I watched this clip already. I just don't know where I kept this clip that's why I downloaded it again today. Then when they started talking about the song, Ryo started and I was already in tears. Then it got worse seeing ShigePi in the lift. And somehow another I knew Pi said thanks to Shige but I didn't notice the words, so I watched again and it was "arigatou". Probably "saki arigatou" but it's ok. Then during Kei's comments, they showed the whole concert hall and I was crying again. Lastly Pi said "Thank you" and it ended.

Then I thought they will never perform share again since it was a 6P song. Then I hoped, that they will still perform, but leave the 2 parts untouched. With original voice dub. I hope as a 4P NEWS, they don't erase the past which once had 6P. I hope they retain everything, even though I know this is selfish. They may sing over, but the voices are kept during the part where they are supposed to sing. If that is how they are going to continue, I will respect them so much. However, these are up to the agency and they probably wouldn't allow such kind of thing. I just hope that Kei as the leader will continue on like this. I just suddenly thought if anyone will ask Pi about NEWS upcoming songs, and if he will even listen to them. Because he has to also face the fact that these songs were supposed to have his voice. Then I watched so many episodes of Shounen Club Premium and they were all talking about how NEWS plays an important part in their career path or so. Kei as well, Tego as well, during the documentary, I think even Massu said that, that NEWS is like home to them where they know they can do what they like and be free.

So I shall end here. If not it will become too late again.

Top songs for NEWS! :)

I'm sort of glad that I could send my notes on my N8 through email and thus I was able to retrieve the information below. So that I don't have to re-type all the things. And I was glad how N8 could capture my typing so well. At least much better than my LG when it is that one being able to upload and to update blogs. Never mind about those now.

"Listening to 365 nichi by k8 then was amazed by the song.. Then suddenly felt that the song could be performed by tegomass for a greater level.. The suddenly realised that can never be NEWS's style.. Not that they don have such style.. But if they were to sing songs of similar theme, the song will be more heart warming, or mere heart wrenching.. No matter what, they most likely will not be able to performe such songs or still it does not suit their style.. And so i cried.. On the train.."

So it was just about the things above. Actually I did write about myself listening to their songs. K8 I mean. But I didn't notice that until now. If Ryo was only in NEWS, he couldn't have been able to get in touch with such wide genre of songs. And today I listened to some other songs such as Arashi (because I was watching some drama with Sakurai Sho and Kitagawa Keiko) and I realised, the genres of song that NEWS usually sings are not really limited however did not cover certain genres as well. At least for now. Right now, I just want to listen to certain songs of NEWS. Out of a sudden. And so, NEWS somehow is still stuck in the lively and cheerful state, and therefore not able to perform songs that are more to the.. Angst kind? I'm feeling kind of sad too. Because how I deem NEWS as. I should always feel that they can do more than this, however even at this state, I feel that they can only perform certain genre. However I think SMAP has also been fixed in that area. Isn't it?

Anyway, I was watching some clips about SMAP just now. Because I watched the SXS with Pi. Then I moved on from there. Then I knew they recorded 2 songs in Chinese just for a release in China. And they had a live concert in China. And how they treated the fans in China? Or rather how the records company in China is trying to show SMAP their fans' love and power.

Then I wonder, how come these people, these groups, they can stand as one for such a long time and still stay as one? SMAP, Arashi, Kinki Kids, Tokio, V6 and all. Yes, KT once had Jin, but they only lost one member once. NEWS lost their members for.. Once? Twice? Thrice? Or if you counted it properly, four times. When Moriuchi left, Uchi left, Kusano left, then Ryo and Pi left. I wonder why I fell in love with such a group suddenly. *laughs* When I kept emphasizing on the member ai.

I don't really like myself thinking about the members leaving. And keep dwelling on that fact. However, I thought that would be one way to make myself numb. And strangely, I didn't feel like crying when I was listening to Taiyou no Namida or Utsukushisugite Beautiful Eyes but when it went into the interlude of Lady Spider, suddenly I felt sad. And I want to listen to some songs like Akai Hana. I shall do it now.

And just now I wanted to listen to some Tegomass songs which I didn't because I got attracted by SMAP songs. So I shall do it right after this Akai Hana. I still remember I commented that HwM single was so far the best with all coupling songs good as well. Other than Cherish single. Then it came Taiyou no Namida which was also another one. Then Summer Time which I definitely now love all songs. Then Happy Birthday was the best. Really. Then Koi no ABO did it. Although Sakura Girl wasn't exactly the best single, I love that A side so much! Not to mention Love Melodies! Now it became Fighting Man. After a while of listening, actually the B sides are cute, very cute and I do love them. And Winter Moon. If I were to come out of the top 10 songs of NEWS, I probably can't do it since I wouldn't know which song to place as No. 1. Maybe I shall just list out some songs that come to my mind right now.

• Kibou Yell
• Sakura Girl
• Winter Moon
• Koi no ABO
• Love Melodies
• Forever
• Aki no Sora
• DTF
• Fighting Man
• Summer Time
• Weeeek
• ...

And if I have to say it, I just squeezed Weeeek out from my mind, I didn't really remember other songs that made an impact. Actually so many more songs, but if I were to just say the ones that come to my mind, yes you got my top 11. Now I remember one song that I didn't put on the list. My goodness how could I forget!!!

Share!!

Yes! But who knows, probably I already tried forgetting about it so that it will not bring back those sadness. But right now I have made a playlist of the songs I typed above. Not in that sequence though. Hehe. And because of this, I also want to test my liking of Pi's song. So here it goes:

• Loveless
• Daite Senorita
• Time
• My Dear
• Dance Jam
• Saigo no Love Song
• Love Song
• Gomen ne Juliet
• MOLA
• Himawari
• One in a million
• ...

And similarly, I forgot about One in a million. And I had to take quite a while before I decided to stop thinking. There, here it goes again, Top 11 of Pi's songs. Though I wasn't sure if those were correct, since I really take time to think of almost all songs. Except for that first song that already was in my mind when I want to do this. Haha. And it is kind of injustice to Pi since I do love all other songs, just if I wanted to list them down then it will really become a long list. Just like NEWS if I want to as well. Lastly, should I try for Tegomass since I think I'll really limit the songs. *laughs*

• Hanamuke
• Yoru wa hoshi wo nagamete okure
• Chikin Boya
• Ai Ai Gasa
• Pasta
• Chu Chu Chu
• Kissu kaerimichi no love song
• Sunadokei
• Hajimete no Asa
• Boku ga Pochi dattara
• ...

Alright, just nice, 10 songs. Though I was thinking of La La Sakura and in the end I thought I didn't want to include that song on an impulse. I really thought through very much for Tegomass, but I guess if I were to have a list to choose, probably the songs will change ka mo shirenai. Even though I have the word "probably", I don't know why I felt like ending that sentence with ka mo shirenai. *laughs*

I shall create this 3 playlists. :) Give me a few minutes. I shall do them on my Nokia Phone first. :) 

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Done, but Tegomass is incomplete because I didn't have Miso Soup single in my Nokia. How come? Anyway, shall do it on my zen when I have the time. I just want to enjoy these songs. And it's only through this then I realised how many songs did I miss out. Especially Pi's. For example, I forgot After the rain. NEWS I forgot Push On!. Actually I forgot the title, I was trying to recall just now. *oops* And certain songs I do love them, but in order to make sure the songs on the list is special, I had to abandon so many other songs. I shall do this next time again. And see if the number of songs that touched me changed. 

So I guess I should sleep soon. It's already so late. However I still have about 5 songs to go. I know I have these many songs. *laughs* I just can't not listen to them since I have already placed them on my list. Moreover this is after abandoning some songs. *laughs* I have DTF now. I want Aki no Sora, I want Summer Time actually but I will try just listen partly. Then Share? Winter Moon? My intention was Tegomass songs, not NEWS. So I must also complete that few songs of Tegomass!!

I love Aki no Sora. Really. I kept on using the word "abandon" because I was thinking of "sutete" in Japanese. *laughs* NEWS. NEWS. By the way I wanted to rant about how I would be if I were to like Arashi or SMAP. At least when I search on search engine or others, I can just type the name and the results will show up. Unlike "NEWS" no matter if you caps it or not, it will not show you what you wanted actually. *laughs*

Just posted on FB. By the way, "share" is really a 催泪歌. Almost want to cry. Just by thinking, "this is a studio mix, clear voices, never together anymore, because they can't meet to do a song together, probably this song is made one by one...". 

Alright. I shall immerse myself in music now. Jya na.

Naita koto

Just want to write down what happened a while ago. I was listening to some songs on my computer, and I chanced upon several K8 songs, and I fell in love with them! So I went to check out more songs and albums to download. And while listening to these songs, I went on to read the information on wiki about K8. Then I changed the song to Cyndi's song, bu ku. In the end I found myself crying suddenly when I read about how K8 was formed. Then about Uchi leaving, about Ryo leaving NEWS. Then I found myself crying very badly. Then I moved on to NEWS. Again I was crying. Then I moved on to Yamashita Tomohisa. Finally I wasn't crying anymore. But I don't even know why I cried. I just felt the sadness, probably the song also affected my emotions. So just want to note down this sad moment I felt just now. NEWS. I was thinking. Will the members feel lonely, sad or even show these feelings when they perform together again. As 4 members. I wonder will Pi also feel the sadness or others when they see the 4 of them performing again. Not to mention, when I read their feelings on Duet and Wink Up. I think it was Wink Up which has the best information of Pi, but Duet has the best of the members. So I was really touched by Massu's message. Very much, because he loves all the releases of NEWS thus far and therefore he wants to protect them and continue them on. I really love it. Then Kei also addressed something similar. But most importantly, they are the two who showed concern for the other two. So I was thinking, when NEWS have their next concert, I want to be there. I want to be there in the first concert as much as possible. To see how they shine. To find that little hint of sadness if any. I really want to feel some.. I don't know. I guess I'm the only one who can't seem to get over this. So that's all.

Happy Belated Birthdays!

I just realised I did not do a proper review for Fighting Man and SGSB. I think that is really because I was so tied up with my work during that period. I shall do it. Now? Tomorrow? And one last thing is that. I always miss out the two birthdays. Because they are nearing the end. So, Happy Birthday Ryo Chan and Tego Chan!! I'm so sorry. The dates are 3 Nov and 11 Nov right?

I really love Pi's and Ryo's voice in NEWS songs.

Jya ne.

NEWS

So, I don't really know what to put as my title. I'm listening to my Kyocera recording. :) So, I just want to jot down some points about myself and NEWS.

- I saw someone posting on facebook regarding Happy Feet 2, a trailer, then I felt like crying. (I think I did.) So because, Tego did the dubbing in Japanese and Hoshi wo Mezashite was the movie theme song.
- I saw blood orange at happy lemon, and I sang Blood Diamond.
- I saw gummy with the word "roulette", and I sang Ryo's part in Dancin' in the Secret.

And many more encounters where I cry to myself. I cried when I was on the train to work the next day after knowing the news. I was listening to LIVE album. Then the moment I wasn't working anymore, during break or times when I suddenly can think more than just work, I will start crying again. And it lasted for days at least. Just a few weeks ago? Or was it last two weeks, I was at Kinokuniya browsing the magazines. Telling myself that I have to buy them because they are going to be the last one with all 6 members together. So I bought, but I was crying at the shelves when I was browsing. Just because of this thought. I couldn't listen to "Share" at all during the start. However I am able to do it now, with lesser crying. Probably just the sadness. I wonder when can I overcome these feelings.

I was reading Pi's column in the new Potato magazine, and he said something about them having chance to be together again in the future. It sounds more of like, "because there may be chances to be together". I couldn't remember the exact line, bad me. Shall flip the magazine now.

「今後もアイツらと一緒になる機会はあるだろうから、その時は恥ずかしくない姿でいたい。」

So anyway, when I was reading that line, I was crying again. I listened to NEWS songs from time to time, upon hearing Ryo's and Pi's voices, I'll come to a realisation that they will never be there anymore. And I'll cry again. I was watching Pacific Con just now, and I heard Kibou Yell. That's my favourite song of NEWS when I first started out. And yes I cried when I see that the 6 of them were performing but no longer now. And one last thing that happened just now. I totally don't understand why didn't I have the Diamond Concert clip. So I didn't anyway. And I remembered a very precious performance that I love very much, Ginza Rhapsody. So I searched online, and I watched it. Again, I cried. Because you'll never see the creation of such beautiful song again. With Kei and Pi together. There will never be a studio release of that song at all.

And very scary, I have been expecting many things happening. For example, I predicted Pi's solo con and album so well. I didn't realise until I look through my old posts.

"Anyway, just a small update. Pi is releasing his third single "One in a million" and I can sense an album coming soon next year!! :) " from crazeornot

And from newsnonews, where I expected a single release (in the end becoming an album release, which so happened to be the last one with all 6 members) from NEWS, a winter/spring con (which became a Osaka/Tokyo con), a release of Pi's album in the end of year (which is just during the start of the year).

Then today, it was a very strange feeling. It's as if I already felt that the news of Pi's DVD will be released today. Because when Aria messaged me, I was not even surprised. As if I knew about it already. So I didn't, and I went to check. I need money next month, if not I won't be able to live.

I feel like crying already. Ginza Rhapsody. That beautiful melody.

I just feel so glad that I was able to go Japan for all these important events. Even though I know the one at Yoyogi was more important than anything, I managed to go for at least the last one at Hokkaido, Sapporo. I didn't write down any fan report. But I remember the awesomeness. It was fantastic. I was supposed to be listening to Tegomass's new album, but I only listened once and now I'm spamming LIVE album again.

I messaged my Aunt telling her how grateful I am now that she helped me when I wanted to go Japan last year, for LIVEx3 concerts. If not for her, I wouldn't be able to go. And I will regret that much more because I didn't catch their last live, as 6P. Yes, I didn't catch the last con where lovely TegoPi was displayed. But at least, I was there, arena. Catching Pi's glance. :)

I just wonder, how many times have I cried so far? I just thought of Aria's message, where she listened to Ryo's new solo and thinking that this voice will never be in NEWS anymore. It made her cry, it made me cry too. Even though I wasn't listening to that song even.

One more thing. I read Kei's nikki, and he said the 4 of them were planning to celebrate Tego's birthday. If it was the 6 of them, I understand that the 6 won't be able to gather, but will the wishes remain if it was still 6P? Now that it really becomes 4, did the other 2 actually wished each other? There's one thing I think I have to believe in now. That is, believe in Leader. I trust Pi to make the wisest decisions, and at times it may not seem to be the best decision, but trust that it will be the best for everyone. And I trust him, to return gloriously, to bring NEWS to another height again one day.

Somehow, I hope there'll never be single or song releases from NEWS. But they can have more programmes and TV shows please. Then probably after 2 years, or should I say 1 year +, when it reaches the 10th year of NEWS, Pi and Ryo might just join the group again, and thank the members for waiting. It sounds so totally impossible. My goodness.

But still, my 2013 trip to Japan will still be kept for NEWS 10th anniversary. As for my 2012, I wonder. *laughs*

Lastly, I went to read my very old posts. Another coincidence. I set a count down timer for myself to end work at Shokudo last time, and it happened that the date I've chosen became the first day of Pi's SBS concert.

Alright. I shall end here. I just want to say that, I love NEWS, and Yamapi. And that I will not forget about Ryo as well, though I'm not very much into K8. I'll try my best. And I watched his 2 latest drama. So kakkoii!!! :) *laughs*

So that's all. I got to sleep if not I can't wake up at normal hours tomorrow anymore. I need to clean my room. Will I do it tomorrow? Hopefully. Still. I feel hollow now.

Winter Moon

I decided the title of my post today because I want to write about this song so much. I was listening to it just a while ago (in fact I want to listen to it now too~) and I had so many scenes and thoughts running in my mind. Anyway in the end I'm like listening to iitai dake. *laughs* Koyashige. So cute. Anyway I'm like on ecstasy and smiling to myself so much~

But on a sad note, just to write about what happened on 7th Oct 2011. I was still fangirling on dono what thing, but when I went home, I read someone's fb, and it showed a picture of NEWS in soukan.. Then I didn't know why it was there, but somehow when I read the comments, it said something of NEWS becoming 4 members, but it wasn't clear. So when I was reading it, I was a little sad, but I didn't expect it to be real. I thought it was just some thoughts of fans. In the end, I tried to find more info, I realised it was true because I found the news report. Then when I went to read my jweb, indeed the news was there. With every member's comment. Really at that moment I found myself sobbing so hard, as if my heart went hollow. 心被掏空的感觉。Then I cried (with pauses and intervals of course) for at least 3 hours. I couldn't sleep because whenever I close my eyes, all the emotions come overwhelming me. But after 2 weeks, I have recovered. I can watch their old performances, and laugh at all their silly acts.

However, I'm still sad. The first few days I could just cry without any reasons. Now I've recovered, but just now when Aria said the date out, I suddenly felt sad, though not crying yet. And I came to check this blog, I happened to see my last post. Exactly same date. Last year.

It's not that I'm not going to support or like or love them. It's just that I love the chemistry and bonding between them. Fighting man single was even released on Ryo's birthday. I shall do a review on Fighting Man when I have the time. Most probably a week after. And I want to read on my previous post. Not only that, last time when it happened, I've decided to choose a song daily (though I might have to change this since I don't think I'll really have such ample time to do this) and read the song, interpret the lyrics, choose my favourite lines and explain what makes me love the song. And my first impression of that song.

I wonder if it was my intuition last time. But I was crying hard on the concert when I saw them walking out during the opening. I even told Sakura that it's the last time I can see them. Indeed. It was.

So moving to Winter Moon. I feel that it's such a danceable number NEWS HAS TO PERFORM IT LIVE!!! Now that there's no Pi and Ryo (and I realised I didn't exactly mention what happened on that day. I probably was trying to run away from the facts?) I wonder how the song will be performed. It will never be the same as how it was in my mind. Anyway, the type of dance should be a little ballet like? Very Johnny's style dance. Plus R&B style like how they did it in izanaizuki. And like how 5566 did in "tiao bo" and Cyndi in "lian ai jie zhou". :) Really could imagine how graceful and powerful the dance will be. They can wear things similar to Sakura Girl. :)

And I love the song so much!!!!!!!!!!! The flow, the tempo, the melody.. Everything. I'm starting the song right now. And I'll try to write my feelings. The piano.. How the tone changes from left to right and left. The bass. How it was like dupp dupp.. Pi's voice.. soothing.. kei singing with someone harmonizing.. massu! tego.. ubaitai~~~~!! and the dance starts.. sad.. sad song.. but still beautiful.. odoru winter moon~  how it was soft and goes light.. in the end..

ryo.. thump~~ shige.. i wonder who was harmonizing.. pi! massu~ anata ni, oboretai!!! motto fukaku kuchizukete.... piano interlude.. then it comes.. faster tempo.. harder bass.. faster dance step.. power dance steps.. mamoru yo winter moon. then it will come to a beautiful turn and ending.

So that's all~ :)