NEWS

So, I don't really know what to put as my title. I'm listening to my Kyocera recording. :) So, I just want to jot down some points about myself and NEWS.

- I saw someone posting on facebook regarding Happy Feet 2, a trailer, then I felt like crying. (I think I did.) So because, Tego did the dubbing in Japanese and Hoshi wo Mezashite was the movie theme song.
- I saw blood orange at happy lemon, and I sang Blood Diamond.
- I saw gummy with the word "roulette", and I sang Ryo's part in Dancin' in the Secret.

And many more encounters where I cry to myself. I cried when I was on the train to work the next day after knowing the news. I was listening to LIVE album. Then the moment I wasn't working anymore, during break or times when I suddenly can think more than just work, I will start crying again. And it lasted for days at least. Just a few weeks ago? Or was it last two weeks, I was at Kinokuniya browsing the magazines. Telling myself that I have to buy them because they are going to be the last one with all 6 members together. So I bought, but I was crying at the shelves when I was browsing. Just because of this thought. I couldn't listen to "Share" at all during the start. However I am able to do it now, with lesser crying. Probably just the sadness. I wonder when can I overcome these feelings.

I was reading Pi's column in the new Potato magazine, and he said something about them having chance to be together again in the future. It sounds more of like, "because there may be chances to be together". I couldn't remember the exact line, bad me. Shall flip the magazine now.

「今後もアイツらと一緒になる機会はあるだろうから、その時は恥ずかしくない姿でいたい。」

So anyway, when I was reading that line, I was crying again. I listened to NEWS songs from time to time, upon hearing Ryo's and Pi's voices, I'll come to a realisation that they will never be there anymore. And I'll cry again. I was watching Pacific Con just now, and I heard Kibou Yell. That's my favourite song of NEWS when I first started out. And yes I cried when I see that the 6 of them were performing but no longer now. And one last thing that happened just now. I totally don't understand why didn't I have the Diamond Concert clip. So I didn't anyway. And I remembered a very precious performance that I love very much, Ginza Rhapsody. So I searched online, and I watched it. Again, I cried. Because you'll never see the creation of such beautiful song again. With Kei and Pi together. There will never be a studio release of that song at all.

And very scary, I have been expecting many things happening. For example, I predicted Pi's solo con and album so well. I didn't realise until I look through my old posts.

"Anyway, just a small update. Pi is releasing his third single "One in a million" and I can sense an album coming soon next year!! :) " from crazeornot

And from newsnonews, where I expected a single release (in the end becoming an album release, which so happened to be the last one with all 6 members) from NEWS, a winter/spring con (which became a Osaka/Tokyo con), a release of Pi's album in the end of year (which is just during the start of the year).

Then today, it was a very strange feeling. It's as if I already felt that the news of Pi's DVD will be released today. Because when Aria messaged me, I was not even surprised. As if I knew about it already. So I didn't, and I went to check. I need money next month, if not I won't be able to live.

I feel like crying already. Ginza Rhapsody. That beautiful melody.

I just feel so glad that I was able to go Japan for all these important events. Even though I know the one at Yoyogi was more important than anything, I managed to go for at least the last one at Hokkaido, Sapporo. I didn't write down any fan report. But I remember the awesomeness. It was fantastic. I was supposed to be listening to Tegomass's new album, but I only listened once and now I'm spamming LIVE album again.

I messaged my Aunt telling her how grateful I am now that she helped me when I wanted to go Japan last year, for LIVEx3 concerts. If not for her, I wouldn't be able to go. And I will regret that much more because I didn't catch their last live, as 6P. Yes, I didn't catch the last con where lovely TegoPi was displayed. But at least, I was there, arena. Catching Pi's glance. :)

I just wonder, how many times have I cried so far? I just thought of Aria's message, where she listened to Ryo's new solo and thinking that this voice will never be in NEWS anymore. It made her cry, it made me cry too. Even though I wasn't listening to that song even.

One more thing. I read Kei's nikki, and he said the 4 of them were planning to celebrate Tego's birthday. If it was the 6 of them, I understand that the 6 won't be able to gather, but will the wishes remain if it was still 6P? Now that it really becomes 4, did the other 2 actually wished each other? There's one thing I think I have to believe in now. That is, believe in Leader. I trust Pi to make the wisest decisions, and at times it may not seem to be the best decision, but trust that it will be the best for everyone. And I trust him, to return gloriously, to bring NEWS to another height again one day.

Somehow, I hope there'll never be single or song releases from NEWS. But they can have more programmes and TV shows please. Then probably after 2 years, or should I say 1 year +, when it reaches the 10th year of NEWS, Pi and Ryo might just join the group again, and thank the members for waiting. It sounds so totally impossible. My goodness.

But still, my 2013 trip to Japan will still be kept for NEWS 10th anniversary. As for my 2012, I wonder. *laughs*

Lastly, I went to read my very old posts. Another coincidence. I set a count down timer for myself to end work at Shokudo last time, and it happened that the date I've chosen became the first day of Pi's SBS concert.

Alright. I shall end here. I just want to say that, I love NEWS, and Yamapi. And that I will not forget about Ryo as well, though I'm not very much into K8. I'll try my best. And I watched his 2 latest drama. So kakkoii!!! :) *laughs*

So that's all. I got to sleep if not I can't wake up at normal hours tomorrow anymore. I need to clean my room. Will I do it tomorrow? Hopefully. Still. I feel hollow now.